Back in Africa…..

As we landed in Kilimanjaro Airport, Tanzania, on Wednesday 8th May 2013, my mind went back 15 years as I remembered what it was like when we arrived at the same airport (more like a wooden outbuilding!) on a one way ticket with 2 small children.. I remember standing in a queue watching all the insects flying around, I remember the heat, the smells and the complete unknown of what was to come. We got in a car and the kids, who were 7 and 6 at the time, were silent on our journey. If you’ve got kids, you know that is unheard of. That’s how scary it was. We knew nothing, we didn’t know where to buy food, how to do banking, where the doctors or dentist was, where to get water from, where to buy a car…. Everything that we had ever known was taken from us and we were scared. Thankfully, we overcame our fear – if we hadn’t I wouldn’t be writing from there now. Gradually, we got used to life and grew to love East Africa – there is nowhere like it on the planet. Put it on your bucket list…..

We lived in Tanzania for almost 3 years and imagined we’d be there for a few more. That wasn’t to be and our dreams of having our own orphanage, school, sports arena, International church and a lodge for retreats and travellers went down the drain. Our dreams were cut short – or so we thought…..

Even though we moved back to the UK, we never stopped helping East Africa. We visited regularly – John over 30 times. We have also personally brought over 100 people from the UK on a variety of trips. We can safely say, it is in our blood….

We think that we may have been given another opportunity to fulfil our dream, not a new dream, not a dream that we just thought of but one that we thought had gone. People have often asked us if we miss living in Africa and it has to be said, there are certain aspects that we certainly do miss, the lifestyle, the people, the honour and love of the people, dare I say, the weather! There are also some things that we definitely don’t miss like power cuts, no water, the mosquitoes who truly love me, the dark nights (never a summer evening but, then they are rare in the UK these days!)

Overall though, Tanzania is a great country. We went for a walk today, we walked past where we used to live. It’s changed much but we love it..

We are spending the next few weeks here to think, pray, ponder and dream of a centre that will hold all of the above things… Is it really possible that we get the chance to do it again? It has to be said, that only God knows the how’s and where’s of this. We are trusting Him and the people in our lives who are our friends, colleagues and leaders – we will listen as we seek to move this dream forward.

Will we move lock, stock and barrel back out here? will we have a base in the UK and in Tanzania?Will we continue to receive teams of young people (and older if you like?) and inspire them to help Africa? Some of those questions we know the answers to, some we don’t. We are hoping that by the time we board the plane back to the UK, things will be clearer. If you’re a praying person, please would you?

A trapeze artist cannot get a hold of the next trapeze until he/she has let go of the previous one.

We have had to let go of something extremely precious in order to catch hold of this new trapeze. We are still in a sense of mourning. Yet at the same time, we are very excited and also feel privileged that we are being entrusted with a massive vision to help as many people as possible from the youngest child to the oldest grownup. We know we can do it….. we would love it if you would be a part of it…. even if that is simply following our journey and keeping in touch.
As soon as we know more, we will share it with you…. You can contact us on deb@agapelife.co.uk

Fight until you win!

What are you battling with at the moment? If anything! Maybe you’re living in a battle-free zone right now! Enjoy it while it lasts! I don’t want to be a profit of doom but, if you’re living the Chrisitan life and trying to obey God with your choices, then it stands to reason that you have an enemy on your back who will be trying to take you out!
I’ve been reading the book of Judges recently and I noted that when they were fighting, they were fighting hard but they also had years of rest and peace – there were periods of 40 years at a time and sometimes 80 years! I imagine the people that were alive during the times of peace were very grateful! They were fighting for land, the land that God had promised to Abraham back in Genesis. Although God promised them this land, they still had to fight for it! Land! What ‘land’ do you need to take in your life? Health, finances, relationships? Maybe you’ve been fighting for years and so you’ve given up and you’re hiding under your duvet! Maybe you’re pretending you’re in a time of peace but deep down you know you should still be fighting!

There are some things that we have to fight for on our own, some things that are our own personal back packs that we have to carry. No-one can go to the gym for you or make you eat healthy, no-one can do your essay or prepare your Sunday school class! These are our tasks and our responsibility but there are other loads at times that you need help with. You need friends around you to help you fight! When you’re grieving, when you’re broken or when you’re lost – At times like these you need others to fight with you. I hope you have friends you can call on in a time like this…..

So, whether you need pick up your back pack or get some help with your load – pick up your sword again and fight! I’ve said this before but it’s worth repeating: How long do I fight? Until I win!!

Take your ‘land!’

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As a family, we are celebrating two big birthdays this weekend. My dad, Jim, is 70 and our daughter, Beth is 21! I am at a loss as to how Beth can be 21 by the way, when surely I am still only 21 myself but there we have it!

Milestone birthdays cause us to think and look back and I began to wonder a lot about ‘what ifs’ There are probably hundreds but I will only mention a few relating to my family…what if my dad hadn’t become a Christian when he was a young man, he would never have met my mum and I would never have been born. What if John, my husband, hadn’t given his life to Christ when he was 28 in a little church in Blackpool that my dad was pastoring? We would NEVER had met. Our lives and backgrounds were so completely different…

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What if?……..

As a family, we are celebrating two big birthdays this weekend. My dad, Jim, is 70 and our daughter, Beth is 21! I am at a loss as to how Beth can be 21 by the way, when surely I am still only 21 myself but there we have it!

Milestone birthdays cause us to think and look back and I began to wonder a lot about ‘what ifs’ There are probably hundreds but I will only mention a few relating to my family…what if my dad hadn’t become a Christian when he was a young man, he would never have met my mum and I would never have been born. What if John, my husband, hadn’t given his life to Christ when he was 28 in a little church in Blackpool that my dad was pastoring? We would NEVER had met. Our lives and backgrounds were so completely different from each other that the chances of us even meeting let alone marrying were nil. If we’d never had met and married, then our amazing kids, Chris and Beth wouldn’t be on the planet and their great partners, Justine and Sam, would not be in our lives. And so on and so on….. We can all do the ‘what ifs’ about our own lives and, of course, some ‘what ifs’could be ‘if I hadn’t done that, my life would be better’Regrets and wrong choices are a part of all of our lives but the bigger point is this: If you’re reading this, you’re alive, you have a life, you were not an accident, you were not a mistake! God intended for you to be on earth and if anyone has ever told you any different, maybe a parent or a teacher, THEY WERE/ARE WRONG! It’s not how you were conceived but why you were conceived…

If you have ever seen the movie, ‘It’s a wonderful Life’ you’ll know that it portrays the life of George, a man whose life is good for a while but then begins to go wrong… One night, he wants to end it all because he thinks the world would be better off without him. His guardian angel, Clarence (and wouldn’t we all want one like him!) shows him exactly what the world would have been like if he hadn’t been born. His brother, whose life George saved, would have drowned. His boss who almost wrongly subscribed poison to one of his customers would have killed someone if George hadn’t seen it. His children wouldn’t have been born. George realises that his life does count and they all live happily ever after…It’s a beautiful portrayal of human life and the knock on effect that each life has.

You may think that your life is pointless, you may wonder why you’re on the planet. Just stop today and do the ‘what if’ ‘game’ and see where it takes you. If you regret some of your ‘what ifs’, I know someone who is just amazing at giving 2nd, 3rd, 4th to infinity of chances. He knows you better than you know yourself, he created you for a reason. You can get to know him if you don’t but if you do, come on! Realise who it is who lives inside you. And go for extra-ordinary things. You can start by asking the ‘what if’ I hadn’t become a Christian, the answer? You wouldn’t be going to heaven…….That’s enough to change your day…

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We’ve all heard the question and maybe asked it, ‘Does my bum look big in this?’ Any man worth his salt would tell you the truth at this point but the problem is whether or not the truth is really wanted! When a question like that is asked, the question bearer has to seriously ask ‘do I want the truth or am I looking for a compliment even if it’s not the truth?’

The Bible says, ‘Speaking the truth in love, we will grow up in all things’ (Eph 4:15)
Having the truth told to you is no easy thing – no-one wants their weak points pointed out because it’s an intrusion into areas of life that can be sensitive. Body odour, bad breath, sharp tongue, lack of patience, to name just a few! Who wants to broach such subjects? You are likely to suffer backlash and you may even lose…

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Does my bum look big in this?

We’ve all heard the question and maybe asked it, ‘Does my bum look big in this?’ Any man worth his salt would tell you the truth at this point but the problem is whether or not the truth is really wanted! When a question like that is asked, the question bearer has to seriously ask ‘do I want the truth or am I looking for a compliment even if it’s not the truth?’

The Bible says, ‘Speaking the truth in love, we will grow up in all things’ (Eph 4:15)
Having the truth told to you is no easy thing – no-one wants their weak points pointed out because it’s an intrusion into areas of life that can be sensitive. Body odour, bad breath, sharp tongue, lack of patience, to name just a few! Who wants to broach such subjects? You are likely to suffer backlash and you may even lose a friend either permanently or for a time…. Speaking the truth can be risky business! BUT if we want to grow up in ALL things, we need someone in our lives who will be bold enough to tell us the truth whatever the reaction. If we want to be the best we can be, then we have to realise that there are things in our lives called blind spots – things that everyone else can see, and we can’t, hence the reason they are called blind spots!

So, here is the question: Who tells you the truth? Have you got anyone? Or, did someone try it once but, because of your reaction, backed off and has never done it since! Have you got someone in your life who is ‘allowed’ to tell you stuff that may sting a little but, if they are right, and if you will listen and take it on board, then you take a step closer to being a better person.

It must be stressed that the person who tells you the truth must be a person who loves you and also wants the best for you. It CANNOT be a person who just wants to be mean and continually point out your faults! Who wants that?

Everyone needs a coach – their job is to help you get good things into your life and bad things out! If you haven’t got one, get one!

And, if you’re not sure you want the truth, think twice before you ask, ‘does my bum look big in this!’

Feel free to share! Until next time, D x

Facebook – friend or foe?

My relationship with Face book has been an on/off affair over the years… Sometimes I love it, other times, it drives me insane! I have often asked myself the question, what is it for? For some, it is the only way they get to communicate their emotions, for others, it gives them a moment of significance if someone ‘likes’ their status and for that fleeting moment, you may feel important and if no-one ‘likes’ it, then the opposite is true…’Oh no! no-one likes me!’I have found myself checking every few minutes to see if anyone has commented on my status and I know, so have you! I have sighed and been mad at some of the things I’ve seen and wished that I’d never seen them because if I hadn’t then I wouldn’t be thinking about it and I wouldn’t be mad! Facebook can be very emotionally driven and it is very easy to write something for the world to see which you regret afterwards, but it’s too late! It’s out there. You can’t take it back. It’s very easy to read into someones status something that is not true and before you know it, you’ve made an assumption and a judgement that isn’t what the person meant at all. Maybe you’ve been tempted to write a response to justify a situation – I know I have and I can type so I could do it quickly, press the ‘send’ button and live to regret it!

I have been off FB for about a month now…. What do I miss? I miss being in contact with friends from overseas,family members and friends that are not in my everyday life. What don’t I miss? Status’ that tell me how fed up someone is, or that tell me they went to the dentist today or invites to play ‘Farmville!’ Is that still a game?

I tried to go back on the other day and had the bright idea that I would just be friends with the people who I don’t see…. But when it came to deleting friends, I just couldn’t do it! It felt too ruthless…So, the question I’m left with is, do I stay away so as not to have my day interrupted by things that I just don’t want to know or see or do I put up with that and delete as I go those who tell me those things so that I can benefit from being in touch with friends and family that I never see?

So…Facebookers- a word of caution… especially if you’re a Christian, before you press that ‘send’ button, make sure what you’re about to announce to the world is positive. Even ask God to help you if you’re not sure, but my guess is, if you’re not sure, then don’t press send! There’s enough negative stuff in the world today so let’s use Facebook as a positive tool to influence for good… Think before you type!

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Most people will be aware of the saying, ‘ignorance is no plea in a court of law’ In other words, you will not be found ‘not guilty’ of a crime you committed, just because you may not have known it was a crime. If you murder someone, you’re guilty due to the law. They won’t let you off if you say, ‘Oh I didn’t know murder was a crime’

If I picked up a live wire, whether I knew it was live or not will not stop it giving me a nasty shock or possibly killing me! Law is law. The law of electricity, the law of gravity, the law of the land and so on….

I believe it is the same in God’s kingdom. He has put certain laws in place for us to obey and we have a choice to either obey those laws or ignore them. Whatever…

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Ignorance is no plea

Most people will be aware of the saying, ‘ignorance is no plea in a court of law’ In other words, you will not be found ‘not guilty’ of a crime you committed, just because you may not have known it was a crime. If you murder someone, you’re guilty due to the law. They won’t let you off if you say, ‘Oh I didn’t know murder was a crime’

If I picked up a live wire, whether I knew it was live or not will not stop it giving me a nasty shock or possibly killing me! Law is law. The law of electricity, the law of gravity, the law of the land and so on….

I believe it is the same in God’s kingdom. He has put certain laws in place for us to obey and we have a choice to either obey those laws or ignore them. Whatever we decide to do, however, will not stop those laws either working for us or against us. Let’s look at the most important one that every believer should live by. ‘love The Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength and love your neighbour as yourself’ Jesus commanded us to do this, he didn’t just ‘request’ it. So many of our churches have ignored this by and large and still we expect God to turn up and do miracles…. Church splits, divisions, bitterness and un forgiveness all stop God’s hand – why? – because He commanded us to love one another and he won’t over rule his commands to simply give us what we want.

I’ve written before that all of God’s promises have ‘if’ clauses and we have a responsibility to know what those are so we can apply them to our lives and then see the fulfilment of those promises manifest in our lives.

What about the law of sowing and reaping… If you don’t sow, you won’t reap. No matter how hard you pray for seed to grow, if you haven’t planted anything, you’re not going to grow anything!
I could have a lovely patch of soil and fast, pray, shout, lie on it and command stuff to grow, but if there is no seed in the ground, I’m not getting anything! – why? – because laws are at work….This is not just a principle for finances by the way, although that is definitely included. It could be anything! Love, health, friendships, you have to plant something if you want to reap something

When Jesus died, he did it to offer us a FREE gift of salvation! Incredible! We didn’t have to do anything to earn it, we certainly didn’t deserve it, but he gave it anyway! And for those of us who accept it, when we die, we will live forever in paradise! Amazing!

However, once we’re over that line, we need to understand how the kingdom of God works and seek to apply all the conditions of God’s promises and to live in obedience to His laws. Once we do that, we will see all of the promises fulfilled in our lives and we will be able to say along with Abraham, ‘When Abraham was old and well advanced in years, he was blessed in every way!’

I want to get there and I hope you do too! Find out what the Word says about your situation, apply the ‘law’ and it will work out!